A Benediction...

To you who see your circumstances and feel despair and doubt rise up in you, tune your ear to the words of the prophet Isaiah: Fear not, for the Lord has redeemed you. He has called you by name and you are His. When you pass through the waters, He will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. For He is the LORD your God, the Holy One, your Savior." God in the Peace of our God who is Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen. 

I hope and pray that these words will speak truth into you. Awesome.



Beware of not acting upon what you see in your moments on the mountaintop with God. If you do not obey the light, it will turn into darkness. “If therefore the light that is in you is darkness, how great is that darkness!” (Matthew 6:23). The moment you forsake the matter of sanctification or neglect anything else on which God has given you His light, your spiritual life begins to disintegrate within you. Continually bring the truth out into your real life, working it out into every area, or else even the light that you possess will itself prove to be a curse.

The most difficult person to deal with is the one who has the prideful self-satisfaction of a past experience, but is not working that experience out in his everyday life. If you say you are sanctified, show it. The experience must be so genuine that it shows in your life. Beware of any belief that makes you self-indulgent or self-gratifying; that belief came from the pit of hell itself, regardless of how beautiful it may sound.

Your theology must work itself out, exhibiting itself in your most common everyday relationships. Our Lord said, “. . . unless your righteousness exceeds the righteousness of the scribes and Pharisees, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven” (Matthew 5:20). In other words, you must be more moral than the most moral person you know. You may know all about the doctrine of sanctification, but are you working it out in the everyday issues of your life? Every detail of your life, whether physical, moral, or spiritual, is to be judged and measured by the standard of the atonement by the Cross of Christ.

I'm Worn...

You know when a song somehow sings out the very things that you're feeling and you can't help but seem to surrender yourself to the song? Yeah.

I'm tired
I'm worn
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes to keep on breathing

I've made mistakes
I've let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world
And I know that you can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart that's frail and torn

I want to know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that's dead inside can be reborn
Cause I'm worn

I know I need
To lift my eyes up
But I'm too weak
Life just won't let up
And I know that You can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left
Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart that's frail and torn

I want to know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that's dead inside can be reborn
Cause I'm worn

And my prayers are wearing thin
I'm worn even before the day begins
I'm worn I've lost my will to fight
I'm worn so heaven so come and flood my eyes

Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That you can mend a heart that's frail and torn

I want to know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that's dead inside can be reborn
Yes all that's dead inside will be reborn
Though I'm worn
Yeah I'm worn

I Can See Again...

I've been listening to a lot of Mars Hill Church music lately, and it's so captivating. I've heard people call it, the musician's music but it's more than that. Given that they really are worshiping through these songs, it is the true form of worship in the form of music. I could listen to this stuff forever. 

I just finished reading the first book to the "Night Angel" series (The Way of the Shadows) and it was an amazing read. I couldn't put down the book. I would get tired of reading books; so I would go to do something else but within 5 minutes, I was sticking my nose back into the book. Now, I just need to get that same kind of want for the Bible. I've been doing some consistent reading of the Word and not going to lie, it really changes things in your life. It's almost coincidental; but you really start to believe that the things happening your life are perfectly orchestrated by God. Whether it is the good or the bad, the series of events become something more than just "happenings". They actually start to hold weight and meaning. 

I've been going to Apostle's Church in the city every Sunday and obviously this requires me to take trips out to the city each weekend. After consistent trips out, I've come to appreciate the city for what it has to offer. I actually don't mind going out to the city as often (maybe it's because I've started taking the Express Bus rather than the local route. 

I've been feeling an impulse to write something for some time but now that I'm writing, I don't really feel as though I have anything substantial to say so I will end it at this. 

Goodnight. 

That awkward moment when...

Don't you just hate it when you have a very slow day and nothing is going on at night so you decide to go to bed early and then you realize you can't fall asleep because your mind is racing. Next thing you know, it's 2AM and you're wide awake and your mind is still going: "kjafnLFIUASD;DN qojfopq' JFOPQJDASD IWQE02&$)!@&$)(&()JDOIJdasd au(WSdslkadjadjnoas d9)!(@$&!@){$&(DASOKDJoajd:)()(hdklAHDLASJDKSAJDIOnkanKNFDKASDFLASKNDNAlkjnflksnfsdnf;folsnjf;klanfafn'fanflnsmkjfnscnwdsfmsnfs;kldfandfsnfos;daf......wsfasnfsdjfla...ano;FNLSAD;ANDFSNF;nskanfjdknf;()&)#U$()*#&%)!&@$_!@*$()$*@*!P@*#()UAJDljdladlakjdakmdalkdlala;d.........

Yeah, well I'm having one of those moments right now. It's like all my thoughts are just white noise and it just won't shut up. 

So frustrating when you're mind is racing and you've got so many thoughts swimming through your head. I should invent something that can literally shut your brain off when you're sleeping... Would be a bit dangerous in the protoyping stage... especially with humans... if you accidentally shut the brain off for good... HAHA

Anyway... Johnny Woo suggested I go read 1 Chronicles. Sounds like sound advice.