I completely forgot that I even have this blog. But Christine kindly reminded me by telling me to write in the blog. But it's hard because I don't really have much going through my mind right now... or at least I can't really solidify my thoughts. But here goes on some random rambling...
So, I'm starting to realize that being in a relationship really makes you think a lot more. Things that I would normally brush off or disregard, or things that naturally wouldn't even come across my mind start to come up. And now that I think a whole lot more, I started to realize how easily I can be influenced. Isn't it funny how the little things, the small words are the ones that take you away? A simple "I miss you" or "Hi" can bring new meaning into your life. It's almost sad how much people cling onto those words... and the lengths that people go through in order for those words to become a part of their lives. People actually lose their sense of dignity and pride over those words... But I think one's longing for those words to be a part of of their lives is important under one condition: who are these words coming from? For example, if someone you are not too fond of comes by and says "I miss you", then it means little to nothing, but when your significant other or someone who is important/dear to you says those very same words, they bring joy and bliss into your life. So it's not just the words that carry the weight... it's the person that carries the weight of those words. Now, in light of this, you can also note that by seeing who's words affect you the most, you can also narrow done the people that mean the most to you. When you find yourself longing to hear such words from a person, you can pretty much tell that that person is of importance to you for whatever reason.
But with that in mind, it begs the question: "Why don't we have the same longing for God?" Why don't God's words make us long in the same way? I think it's because His words are so consistent. We get sick of consistency. We long for it all the time but we get so sick of consistency... we get tired of it, bored of it... which is why so many relationships fail after only a few months. So the fact of the matter is, we get bored of God's words... His promises... which is surprising because God is the ultimate romantic. So is there no hope? Do we simply continue living out our lives thinking that all is hopeless? Well, I've been thinking lately that maybe the reason behind our lack of desire for God is because, we don't truly understand the significance of consistency... of solidity. And I think that comes from the lack of understanding of eternity... the inability to comprehend what it means for His love to be steadfast. If we could even grasp a fraction of His steadfast love (essentially grasping the infinite), then we would be able to see why His love is such a big deal. Which I think is why God often challenges us... because we are insatiable beings because we cannot understand or comprehend the vastness of His love. So God brings challenges into our lives, so that we have something that is changing and constantly reminding us that we are in need of perfection and consistency. To remind us that His consistent love is the one thing that will bring true joy into our lives. Strange huh?
On a totally random note, I just finished the book The Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom. It was not as great as Tuesdays with Morrie but it was an interesting book nonetheless. One thing that irked me about the book though was the fact that it wasn't necessarily a Christian book. It spoke of Heaven so easily and for some reason, I felt bothered that Heaven was being described in such a way, especially because God/Jesus played little to no role at all in the book. Heaven is supposed to be all about Jesus. Now, I know it's not a Christian book... but the concept just irked me I guess... Some of the points were interesting though. It had a lot to do with forgiveness. Forgiveness of self and of others. I think one thing people often overlook is forgiveness of self. In the book, one of the main points was that the main character lived a very mundane (if not seemingly pointless) life and he blames it all on certain events in his life... but essentially it all boils down to his inability to forgive himself... which leads to problems in the family and in his own love life. And as he is in Heaven, he learns to deal with his inner struggles and find peace within himself by learning to forgive himself for all the things he blamed himself for because everything happens with a purpose. Everything (every action, event, etc.) is intertwined in this huge web called Life. And every "mistake" was intentional... It's all an interesting concept...
Again on a random note, I watched Avengers today with all my friends (great times!) and not gonna lie, it was an amazing! movie. One of the best times I've had watching a movie... the action was great and the story line was fun. It "tickles" your inner child and makes you wish you were a superhero again. If I were to choose to be one of the Avengers, I would be Iron Man... relatively realistic with really cool supernatural twist... It almost seems attainable hahahaha.
Studying for finals has been on an all time low. It doesn't really help that I don't feel any pressure at all regarding academics... I find no reason to do well on these exams because I feel like I've learned the concepts and I don't really want to prove myself to anybody... I just want to move on with my life and learn new things. But, as with everything in this world, you need to prove yourself... and so I study... with very mild purpose in mind.
I've taken a liking towards classical music again. It's making me feel nostalgic about my classical music days. Something about classical music just excites the brain and really stimulates learning. It almost seems to stimulate life, especially the piano. I love classical piano. My dream would be to go to classical piano recital... a professional one... like at Boston Symphony Hall.
Anyways, time to sleep and dream on about life after finals. :) Good night world.
(I wonder if people still read my blog)...
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